*brain kicks in*
Except, I know that I would want feelings to go with it as well. And I don't LIKE to have feelings like that without friendship first, because I know that without friendship it'll all flop and go stupid and won't end well and afisjfiljgdirsgjiltijlf bluh. *facedesks* It's easy to see why people just hook up when they fall in love. Friendship isn't a prerequisite and there's no guarantee it'll last but hey at least you don't fucking hate everything.
(I would be fine with a makeout/cuddle buddy, but I don't know anyone who is into casual relationships, at least who I'm attracted to. >_<)
I want a friend. Except, y'know, one I'm intimate with. The primary prerequisite for being in a relationship with me is "be a good friend of mine". But I'm not attracted to any of my current friends and getting close to people takes fuckin' years and who even knows if I'll fall in love with any of them, either? This isn't about "you'll find someone someday". This is about "I'm on my own right now and I fucking hate it so much".
Having odd standards is horrible. I cuddle my friends, I'm all for casual and (consentual) polyamorous relationships, and I want to be best friends with someone before I'm willing to be their boyfriend. (But that doesn't mean I don't want to have sex before then. Just that I don't really develop serious feelings for them until later.)?Who the hell even does that??
And I know it'll be worth the wait in the end, and I'm going to keep waiting, but you know that part of you that doesn't want to wait? It does not give a shit. *sob* I'm so fucking lonely.
(This entry was originally posted at http://shade184.dreamwidth.org/91692.htm comments. If you want a DW invite code, ask me!)
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